This blog has changed names from that girl to heart shaped lies to Hii’mgonnawhineandrantandbeawesomehere to currently: Life is but a bad imitation of art, and vice versa. Only gets more and more pretentious, eh?
Also, as far as the site design is concerned, I decided it was time for a changeover. I hope you like the new look!
I remember starting this blog in 2009. I was a naive little girl, wanting a place to be herself. From my first ever post in June, 2009 titled hello:
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alsofeel like a stub as people around me are changing and growing and evolving. i feel lost in the whirlwind of change and the only drama i get is from self-conflict which makes me miss 10th and the old school which makes me wonder how crazy i am. and yes, i make the same mistakes, get bored of things easily but despite everything i’m going through i’m glad that i still love writing as that’s one thing that’s been with me throughout. the sound of my fingers against the keyboard as my thoughts flow…that’s music for me.between all the mistake-making, tension-induced, ugly stupidity there’s one question i’ve been asking myself over and over again this year. maybe it has something to do with being 16 years old but what felt self-explanatory few years back feels equivalent to the unexplainable- who am i?
it’s stupid that i have no clue. i feel like i’ve always been wearing different masks unconsciously and now that i’m old enough to catch up with myself, i’m confused at what i see which is nothing.
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maybe someday, when this blog gets filled up and life-changing things just HAPPEN like in the movies, i’ll know.
Since then, this has my space: for word vomit, movie/product/App reviews when I felt like it and a contest entry or two. It has helped me sound out, seen me at my creative-best and worst. But more than that, I’d like to think that somewhere along those entries I did grow and find some part of myself.
To those who follow my blog, whether you’re someone I know In Real Life who stumbled into it, a fellow blogger, a semi-regular commenter or lurker: THANK YOU! There was a time when this blog was private because I couldn’t bear the thought of people I knew in real life stumbling into it. But I think I grew more and more immune to this irrational fear. And as my follower count climbed slowly but steadily, I appreciated it but never expected it to reach 50. Especially when I once went out of my way to hide this space. Wow!
You guys validate what I have to say in startlingly significant ways, whether by Liking, commenting on my posts and/ just the presence of your usernames on the blog’s Followers list.
