I made this amazing, color-coded to-do list for what was left of my final semester submissions during spring break, a few days before you went off the grid.
I look at it now, and it feels prehistoric. I’ve struck through
a bunch of paper submissions, but so what? It did not change anything.
You came back, and then you left. And it changed the way I look at everything. I lost, and now nothing else will hit me as precisely, and sharply — right at the heart of it all. Everything I thought life was all about struck out, in one fell swoop.