maybe: an endless loop of lost sanity

and you feel the push
from the base of your throat
the temporary rise
of your self esteem.
The YES expands
your self, your world,
into several hundred can-s.

may precede dejection.
Or secret relief.
For a NO
has several hundred versions
of debrief.
A NO is tricky,
A NO can deescalate
the beginnings of hope
with an end that’s stained.

But in both YES and NO
a box is checked.
It’s the MAYBE-s that block
the base of your throat
and make your self worth swing
across a murky jigsaw…
that may piece
or nothing
and reflect an ambiguity
that almost kills
your self, and your world.